Dear mum, We walked over the downs today, I thought that you were with us because the sun was shining through the clouds and was sending beams of light right over us... it was really beautiful and I think of you as a beam of light to brighten my saddest moments of losing you. I am trying to be strong because I know that is what you would want but it gets no easier. I know that it wont ever be the same again without you around. This is the hardest emotion I have ever had to deal with. I love you and miss you very much. Your youngest one.. Roz xxxxxxxxxx