Its Bu's birthday party today, it nearly didnt happen, she was so upset for ages.. just crying and crying... I went outside and sat for a while on the lawn, I felt like i couldnt do it.. we are supposed to be in Yorkshire now, with you and having so much fun.. Miss you so much.. But just as i was about to give up I looked around and noticed the big fat robin from your garden, it seemed to just look at me.. and i thought you would want us to have fun so... party is going ahead.. I hope you pop in to celebrate with us.. I love you and miss you all the time... until we meet again one day mum xxxx