Mum what am i to do, i just spent the weekend in Doncaster and wasnt able to visit you, i just walked into the kitchen and picked up my phone to ring you and then remembered with a pain so bad that you wouldnt be there to answer. i cant do this anymore. why did you leave so soon, i need you back here with us. i cant cope with not hearing your voice and not being able to plan for our next visit. nothing seems real anymore. every day goes by in some kind of a haze. come and have a chat with me soon. love and miss you terribly.