Dear Mum A few more days have passed now, its not getting any easier. The urge to call you is so strong. Because I havent done it, its always there in the back of my mind. Simon and I have been looking at houses, I still want to buy one close to where you are so if you could just let me know where you are please so we can be near you. Although I feel you around me its not enough Mum, dont you know how much I love you, how we all love you, I need to see you and hear your voice. Dawn and Roz have gone back to work and I know that I should too but I just cant right now, I know that when I do they will expect 110% and I need to be thinking of you and remembering you and I wont be able to do that at work so I will just wait a bit longer. Im especially dreading going back up to Leeds and passing the turn off to your house. Do you remember the morning when there was really bad trafic around that area, I had been sat in it for ages so instead of going to Leeds I came and had breakfast with you. I cherish those memories, im so glad that I spent those times with you, it was so much fun. Thank you for making such wonderful friends, I love talking to them, they really understand how we are feeling. I hope that we give them as much comfort as they give us. They miss you as much as we do. I really hope that you are happy with what we have done with all your things, I wanted to make sure that as many people as possible had something to remember you by. Just had a chat with Roz, she called me because she knew im having a bad morning. We just cant make any sense of it. Love you Mutty xxxxxxxx